I Wake Up Weeping

I reach for you in dreams

and wake up weeping

like a child untouched

heart unbroken

you were an unfettered portrait of innocence

my heart pines for you like the dreamer yearns for night

my soul thirsts for you as the watchman waits for morning

I awaken to tears at 3 a.m.

unsure of my crying

unclear of this longing

yet knowing

how I long to breathe in untainted innocence

it’s the happiness I remember

when we were young and free

and the world did not matter

all that mattered was the forest and trees

the bicycle and the breeze

and I was connected with the God of the universe
hands raised, eyes closed, and sun on my face

now I search for innocence in dreams

and wake up weeping

tears falling down my face

trembling by my pillow

you were a child untouched

heart unbroken

an unsullied portrait of innocence

I reach out to hug you

a smile on my face

delight in my eyes

on this journey together

it would just be you and I