Moved with Compassion

Sometimes it has been struggle for me to truly and deeply receive God’s love for myself.  Nevertheless, when I spend time in His presence I sense His love and compassion for others.   I know that He is a God of love with everlasting concern for fallen humanity.  His Spirit is the Spirit of love.  His love is big enough for me and wide enough to wrap the whole world in His arms.    

One of my favorite Scriptures says that when Jesus saw the crowds he had compassion on them.  He saw that they were "harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd." (Matthew 9:36)  His compassion motivated him.  He said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.” (vs. 37-38)

We are all called, in one way or another, to be a laborer in God’s harvest field.  We all have a gift to present, a talent to offer, or a skill to use through which the Lord shines the light of His love to a hurting world.  More importantly, we each possess inside a treasure of immeasurable value – the Spirit and character of Christ.  The compassion of God’s heart beats boldly inside of us by the Holy Spirit.  Because He lives in us we too are moved with a depth of compassion.

It is ultimately God’s Spirit that draws others, through us, to Himself.  The radiance of His love shines through the brokenness of our lives.  Through us the world sees that Jesus is real.  “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.” (II Cor. 4:7, NKJV)

Longing for Intimacy

afraid of intimacy

I hide under a garment of shame

afraid of the sunlight

I hide in the shadows and cover my face

afraid of my own brokenness

I sit in the back and never ask no one their name

in a perfect world, a perfect place, a perfect time

we’d all surrender to the moment

unafraid of the backlash of ridicule

of hanging in the balance on every word that is spoken

I’m no stranger to the darkness

though I’ve tried so hard to live in the light

still living in a world that I do not know

and does not know me

values I do not understand

caring for things that seem unimportant

can I ask for a piece of bread

a drink of water

a pillow and a bed

a quiet room filled with songs and laughter

sharing stories and love

filled with dancing and weeping

holding every thought and heart as a prized possession

captured in this realm of intimacy

He Breaks the Chains

"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
Let the redeemed of the LORD tell their story—
those he redeemed from the hand of the foe..."
Psalm 107:1-2

Next week I am going to Honduras on a missions trip.  The group from my church will be performing a human video called Set Me Free (a Casting Crowns song).  It is a powerful song that portrays the power of Christ to set us free from the chains of bondage to sin.  Jesus said, "Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin... if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." (John 8:34, 36)

I was thinking of a time in my life where God set me free....

There was a time when I would get so angry with myself that I would literally look in the mirror and curse myself.  I don't think it was a regular habit, but, there were times I'd get so down on myself that I would curse myself this way.  One evening, while walking near my church, I was quietly singing.  I wasn't intently focused on the Lord.  Nonetheless, as I sang the presence of God came over me.  On the gravel road I got down on my face, low to the ground.  It seemed I couldn’t get low enough.

God lovingly and gently convicted me.  He made it clear to me that I was not going to curse myself anymore.  I knew it was not pleasing to Him.  It was a wonderful moment!  I did not feel condemned.  I felt loved.  It was one of the most liberating experiences of my life.  I was set free.  There have been a couple times since that experience where that spirit of self hatred has tried to come back.  But even though I still get down on myself too much, I have not cursed myself like I used to since that day.  Thank God for His power to set the captives free!

"Some sat in darkness, in utter darkness,
prisoners suffering in iron chains,
because they rebelled against God’s commands
and despised the plans of the Most High.
So he subjected them to bitter labor;
they stumbled, and there was no one to help.
Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
He brought them out of darkness, the utter darkness,
and broke away their chains.
Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love
and his wonderful deeds for mankind,
for he breaks down gates of bronze
and cuts through bars of iron."
Psalm 107:10-16

Becoming Like Jesus

"For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son..." (Romans 8:29)

I recall, while in college several years ago, after a time of prayer, the Lord led me to this Scripture.  He showed me how He was using the struggles of my life to make me more like Jesus.  That gave deeper meaning and purpose to the things I was going through.  

Now, several years later, as I look back on the struggles of life, I realize that the process of become more like Jesus is a never-ending.  Sometimes I get discouraged with the process.   

II Corinthians 3:18 says, "And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit."

The process of becoming like Jesus need not be a never-ending drudgery, but a glorious experience.  Yes, in His presence we are changed.  Yes, God uses uncomfortable circumstances to refine our character.  And, yes, sometimes in our struggles and sufferings we feel like we're going through the refiner's fire and it is painful.  However, at the deepest place of this process is a place of tremendous and glorious joy.

About Dreams

I Thessalonians 5:19-22 says, "Do not quench the Spirit.  Do not treat prophecies with contempt but test them all; hold on to what is good, reject every kind of evil."

This Scripture does not specifically speak about dreams, but, I believe there is a general principle here.  For one, we ought not limit how the Holy Spirit can work in our lives.  Secondly, any dream, vision, prophecy or supernatural experience needs to line up with the truth of God's Word.  That should be a given.  Thirdly, not every dream is from God and not every dream has some supernatural meaning.

In 2006 I attended a youth convention here in Dallas called Acquire the Fire.  I actually served as the church bus driver for the youth.  During the convention, as they promoted their mission trips, the Holy Spirit began to stir my heart with a desire to get involved with missions.  Around that same time (after the convention, I believe) I had a dream.  In my dream I was at a church service.  I believe I was laid out on the floor, on my face seeking God.  A lady prophesied to me in the dream.  She said, in essence, "Stop focusing on Lake Superior, God is sending you to the nations.  He's sending you to Norway, Africa, and the Middle East."  Not long after the dream God opened up the opportunity for me to go to Honduras with Light of Life International Ministries.  In less than 2 weeks I'll be going on my 5th trip with Light of Life.

I think that dream is a good example of a true dream from the Lord.  Clearly it lines up with Scripture.  Jesus told us to go into all the world and preach the gospel.  I didn't try to conjure it up.  It also confirmed something God was already speaking to me.  He stirred my heart concerning missions and then confirmed His purpose through the dream.  I had an inward witness of the Holy Spirit that it was indeed from the Lord.

Not every dream or vision will work out exactly this way.  But, if it is truly from the Lord, it should line up with these general principles I have outlined here.  The end result should be peace.  I Thessalonians 5 goes on to say, "May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it." (vs. 23-24)

A Dream from the Lord

 “I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth.  These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.” (Isaiah 42:16)

When I first graduated from high school, in 1997, I did not have a clear direction for my life.  It would have been nice if God had laid out everything plain for me.  But life doesn’t work that way.  As we seek God and walk by faith we discover His plan and purpose for our lives. 

Unsure about what to do, I decided not to go to college right away.  Ultimately, after seeking God, and with the encouragement of my pastor, I took a step of faith and went to North Central University in Minnesota to pursue a ministry degree. 

After three semesters of college I left due to the turmoil caused by a dysfunctional relationship with a girl and some personal failures.  I was once again at the place of seeking God’s direction for my life.

Despite my failures God was at work.  He was up to something.  The process of discovering His will and purpose was just that, a process.  Recently a man preached at our church and said, in essence, that the reason finding God's will is hard is because God wants us to seek Him, and in seeking Him we find His will.  

During the next fall I took a greyhound bus to a ministry in New York City.  I spent about a week ministering to children in the inner city of New York.  I thought perhaps I would join their internship program.  Though my time in New York was one of the greatest experiences of my life, after returning to Michigan, it became clear in my heart that New York City was not the place I was supposed to be. 

Though New York was not the place for me, I believed God had called me to a city.  One night, several months after returning from New York, I was at church praying at the altar on a Sunday night.  I prayed a prayer of exasperation:  “God, if you’ve called me to the city then give me a city.”  It wasn’t necessarily a prayer I expected God to answer. 

The next Saturday night, during our worship band practice, my pastor prayed, “Lord speak to us in our dreams tonight.”  That night I had a dream.  In the dream I was driving around a city with my friend Joel.  We didn’t know what city we were in.  We asked a person or two but they wouldn’t tell us.  And then, out of the sky, a voice clearly said, “Dallas, Texas.” 

I woke up the next morning with an excitement inside of me.  I got out my Road Atlas and found Dallas on the map.  Living in Texas had never been on the radar screen of my life.  I tested the dream, talked with my parents, and even took a trip to Texas to spy out the land.  The more I proceeded the more I knew Texas was where I was supposed to be.  In many ways, it was an exciting time in my life.  I was following God by faith on a great adventure. 

Summer Missions Trip

“Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.  Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.”

Matthew 9:37-38

I will be a part of a ministry team of youth and adults to the country of Honduras.  My home church, Mountain Creek Church, is partnering with Light of Life International Ministries in reaching out with the good news of Jesus in Cofradia, Honduras.  Our summer outreach will be from July 4th - 10th, about 2 weeks away as I write this e-mail! 

I am excited about the opportunities to distribute items such as food, flip flops and stuffed animals to the needy people in Cofradia.  We will share the love of Jesus with those we meet, minister in local churches, participate in a children’s crusade, and be a part of huge area-wide crusade services (among other things).  Thousands of people will attend the weekend crusades.  

Would you be willing to mark your calendar to pray for me and our team during the week of July 4th – 10th?    

Thank you for joining me in prayer for a harvest of souls in Honduras!

For more information about Light of Life International:  www.loliministries.org